When you face a major change in life, you have to truly know who you are. Otherwise, your world will turn upside down. As did mine back in the early 90′s.
When I first arrived to the US from Russia as a teenager, I remember desperately wanting to blend in with my new school, new classmates, and an entirely new world. Instead, the best I could do was to stick out like a sore thumb.
I was a teenager back then, and just like in many teenagers, insecurities were coming out of my ears. In fact, I felt so overwhelmingly insecure that I remember my new life in the US turned from being an exciting new adventure into an anxiety driven nightmare. read more
I was cleaning up my desk the other day and came across this quote by Frederick Buechner. I must have saved it because it left an impression on me just as significant back then as it did today.
When I read it I can’t stop thinking of all the moms out there (myself included) who oftentimes find ourselves buried so deep in the everyday chores that we forget to appreciate the very grace of life that is happening in front of us.
I hope this quote will uplift you and remind you that not only what you are doing has the utmost significance, but that there is a hidden wonder in each and every moment of your busy and exhausting life.
“I discovered that if you really keep your eye peeled to it and your ears open, if you really pay attention to it, even such a limited and limiting life as the one I was living… opened up onto extraordinary vistas. Taking your children to school and kissing your wife goodbye. Eating lunch with a friend. Trying to do a decent day’s work. Hearing the rain patter against the window. There is no event so commonplace but that God is present within it, always hiddenly, always leaving you room to recognize Him or not to recognize Him, but all the more fascinatingly because of that, all the more compellingly and hauntingly… If I were called upon to state in a few worlds the essence of everything I was trying to say both as a novelist and as a preacher, it would be something like this: Listen to your life. See it for the fathomless mystery that it is. In the boredom and pain of it no less than in the excitement and gladness: touch, taste, smell your way to the holy and hidden heart of it because in the last analysis all moments are key moments, and life itself is grace.” ~ Frederick Buechner
When I was 18 I was convinced I was fat. I weighed 90 pounds, lost my period, ate pretzels and diet coke for lunch and exercised for two hours every time I thought I ate an extra bite. Three years later, I regained the thirty pounds I lost, plus another ten, and officially became a compulsive binge eater. All in all, it took me eight years after it all to become symptom-free.
I remember praying and asking God to heal me. I was desperate. I prayed hard, and I prayed from the bottom of my heart. I felt out of control, alone, and out of options. When you are faced with a psychological challenge like this, you stop believing that anything or anyone can help you. Praying to God was my last resort, and so I did.
But nothing happened. So I figured God wasn’t interested in my first world problems (we used to fight for food back in Russia), and I gave up asking Him for help.
So off I went trying just about every diet out there but nothing worked long-term.
I figured, I’ll never be normal again. I’ll always have the ‘food issue’, I’ll always be conscious of my body, I’ll always dislike the way I look. I couldn’t do anything about it, and, frankly, I was tired of fighting.
GENERAL DETOX DIET
This is the second part of the original detox diet that helped me kickstart my eating disorder-free life about ten years ago. In Part 1 I list foods to eat. Here are the foods to stay away from:
WHAT TO AVOID/ELIMINATE
This is the original eating plan that I followed for 2 months that kickstarted my eating disorder-free life. This is exactly what it looked like about 10 years ago. My current diet is very similar with a few tweaks, but whenever I feel I need a quick detox, I follow this guideline to a T and it makes a huge difference very quickly.
GENERAL DETOX DIET
Recommended for a minimum of 2 months
WHAT TO EAT: